So I’m a lil bit bummed today. Not feeling too great in the first place…not sick…just crampy. But I’m not letting it stop my taking action. For some reason, now in my life I’m very in tune with the fact that THOUGHTS lead to FEELINGS which lead to ACTION.
Anyway, the major reason I’m bummed is Kathy got offered a job today. That’s not a bad thing…that’s a wonderful thing because I know it makes her feel happy and safe and comfortable, etc. But this job requires a lot of traveling. It’s the same type of work she did before, she’s a Senior Clinical Research Analyst for Pharmaceutical companies, but at this company more traveling is required. I don’t think it’s gonna be constant traveling but I’ll hardly see her the entire month of December and January.
And on top of that, I have to play full-time mommy when the kids are here and she’s traveling (grant it that’s every day for Brandon cuz he only lives with us, but every other week for Joe.) Getting Joe up for school, getting him breakfast, checking homework, studying, making dinner and everything else in the world that mom’s and women do (and a lot of dads) that we sometimes don’t really pay that much attention to. Btw, I never had any desire to have kids, personally. However, I always seemed to date women with children…..Kathy’s the first one I’ve actually lived with. So the whole kid thing is 100% NEW to me and my world. There’s no doubt that I’m still adjusting to them and them to me (after 1.5 yrs. of living together) but still it’s a lot different when Kathy is here and I’m just a step-parent vs. her not being here and I’m the sole parent figure. Ya know? Anyway…..
I think I’ll take a lot of positives from it tho….it’ll FORCE me to get up early every day like I wanted too (you hear that Steph…I will probably be able to accomplish that aspect of my list lol) and then after I get up, work out and take Joe to school I can start on real estate at 8am non-stop until about 2:30pm. I can’t do any nite time appointments for Rainbow when Joe is here but I figure I can work on my websites. So I’m gonna try not to be so bummed out by it.
Ok off to fill our strip club atm.